June 2012
I like it when people are nice to me. Especially boys, considering the fact that they think I’m one of them. Nice people make me smile, especially if you tell me i’m cute. (:
May 2012
I have no friends. People should talk to me.
I wish I could just stop.. but it’s not that easy.
I wish I was more talented.
I wish I sang prettier, I wish I could belt out a Broadway tune. I wish I was skinnier, I wish I was taller. I wish I was beautiful, and loved and cared about. I just really wish I was more talented.
Leave me messages, please. I’m lonely.
I’m so lonely. So terribly lonely.
I know my body is falling apart and all, but is it really normal for my ears to completely stop functioning for a few seconds? Not cool.
You, you’re just wonderful and amazing and nearly perfect. You’re always there for me and everything.
Me, i’m just a basket case and a bundle of nerves. I’m really dorky, and selfish. I don’t deserve to have a friend as great as you.
I’m just really tired of always being there for you and making time for you, but let you ditch me and let me rot alone. I wish you cared.
One year ago today,
I met a very important person. Sadly, this person has left. I’ve moved on, but I still care. I will always care. I miss you.
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For the first time in awhile, I can say that i’m happy. Everyone should be proud. (:
Anonymous asked: I think you kind of look like Jena Malone. Looking at her reminded me of you. She's so beautiful.
Answering this.
Have you ever:
1) Self harmed?
Yep
2) Got into a real fight?
Almost
3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?
Yep
4) Tried to commit suicide?
..
5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt?
Yep
6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
Skins, ahah
7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?
Yes
8) Accused someone of using you?
yes
9) Shoplifted?
no
10) Gotten drunk/high?
no
11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?
no
12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
no
(Right now) Are you:
13) Suicidal?
no
14) Bored?
yeah
15) Avoiding someone?
sorta
16) Avoiding some task?
yep
17) Depressed?
clinically depressed
18) Crying?
almost
19) Annoyed with a friend?
yeah
20) Worried and confused about something important to you?
yeah
Do you:
21) Get depressed easily?
obviously
22) Get jealous/envious easily?
yeah
23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things?
sometimes
24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot?
yeah
25) Try hard in all your classes at school?
yeah
26) Go out drinking?
no
27) Smoke cigarettes?
no
28) Smoke weed?
no
29) Do any hard drugs?
no
30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why?
31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will?
eh i dunno
32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?
yeah
33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain?
sometimes
34) Believe people deserve second chances?
depends
35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying)
yeah
36) Think things will get better?
no
37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?
yeah
38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest)
sort of
Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
39) Long hair OR short hair?
depends
40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs?
smile
41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest?
smile, but they can't be fat
42) Shy OR open?
either
43) Eyes OR body?
eyes, but they can't be fat
44) Religious OR non-religious?
eh
45) Caring OR non-restricting of you?
caring
46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge?
either, just as long as they don't get drunk or drugged up too much
47) Piercings OR no piercings?
doesn't matter
48) Tattoos OR no tattoos?
doesn't matter
49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?
as long as they don't get all drunk and stuff, but i'm stay-at-home
50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with?
parents
Would you:
51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk?
no
52) Smoke weed?
i dunno
53) Smoke cigarettes?
i love the smell, so maybe
54) Get even with someone who betrayed you?
probably not
55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?
eh
56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you?
.....
57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what?
eh
58) Join a band as a part time activity?
MARCHING BAND! \m/
59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse?
yeah
60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them?
yeah
61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like?
already done it, became anemic
62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family?
yeah
63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online?
no
64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported?
no
65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people?
no
66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them?
no
67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems?
i do it all the time
68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes?
i've done it
69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you?
i'd my right eyelid fixed and a boob reduction
70) Sleep naked?
sometimes
You can only choose one:
71) Black or Orange?
black
72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore?
depends on the day
73) Cellphone or Computer?
phone
74) Chocolate milk OR Coke?
coke
75) Tumblr OR Friends?
tumblr, since i have no friends
76) Apple OR PC?
i have PC but apple is cool
77) TV Shows OR Movies?
depends, usually movies
78) Old bands OR new Bands?
depends
79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock?
alternative
80) Reading OR Listening to music?
depends
81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice.
pepsi, because coke makes my teeth gritty
82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically?
depends
83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge?
depends
84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice.
hmm great question
85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice.
idk
86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary?
documentary
87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe?
Europe
88) Shoes OR Shirts?
shoes man, i hate being barefoot
89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence?
Chelsea Grin
90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice.
well, i hate school and i want to drop out, but i need to stay in school so i can become a music teacher yeah
Almost over:
91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest.
yes
92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family?
i don't have a social life
93) Do you want to travel when you are older?
yeah
94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams?
depends
95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions?
yep
96) Rather be the opposite gender?
sometimes
97) What will you name your son/daughter?
hmm, for a girl; Frances, Mary Jane, Eleanor (my grandparents names and I like old names) Loiselle, Collette etc. boy; Liam, Jeremiah, Hayden etc
98) Do you get harassed more than most people do?
yep
99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.
brokencyde because they're god awful
100) What makes you a bad person in your mind?
everything
Hello world, I’m sorry I haven’t been blogging much lately. I say that way too much. I’ve been busy with working on all these auditions, and finishing up school for the year. I’m actually auditioning for this Honors Performance Series choir that will perform in Carnegie Hall in New York City. I’m hoping I make it, because then I get a partial scholarship and stuff....
