April 2012
I'm such a wreck now.
Everything I do goes wrong and I can’t fucking take it.
If my fucking face bruises from when that asshole hit me, i’m flipping shit. You don’t EVER hit a girl. Ever. And you don’t call her a boy, because that’s obviously going to piss her off.
I got punched in the face by a boy today. Sweet man.
I don’t serve a purpose. I’m just another ignored human.
So i’m home alone yet again, and the noises are continuing. I guess i’ve got to ignore the noises and realize they’re just hallucinations. I wish I wasn’t such mental case. It’s so beyond ridiculous how your own mind can play this type of stuff on you.
I’m nervous and shaky and dehydrated for some reason, this can’t be good..
carryyourth0ughts:
But really, I’m so fucking ugly.
Let's give Hayley new music suggestions.
Anyone?
The only reason
why I go to school is because I absolutely hate make-up work. I don’t even learn anything in school. I’ll miss six days total this year, all due to choir/musical related functions. SIX DAYS! That’s so many days missed compared to my normal one day a year. But tomorrow is the district choir festival, and i’m hoping that I get the solo for one of the songs we’re...
It’s 6 in the morning, and already my day is sucking. I woke up and my mind was spinning, and then I try to make breakfast which ends bad. I made myself a toaster strudel, and I went to get it out of the toaster and after it was on my plate, my dad said something and I just dropped the plate. Then dad called me a retard which is ridiculous. So now we’re out of a plate, I had to make...
Nothing to say anymore.
Nothing.
I am nothing.
Anonymous asked: What's so wrong & bad about your life? What do you go through on a daily basis that's so depressing and horrible?
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How do I feel?
Well, shit. How DO I feel? I feel as if I’m just an invisible girl who know one cares about. Too bad I know that no one cares about my sanity, my mood swings, my cutting, any of it. You all have your own problems to deal with, so I just shut up and mind my own business. And do not expect me to believe your life is horrible because of one situation. IT IS ONE FUCKING SITUATION! Do you have...
I’m going to shoot the next person who calls me a hipster.
I hate when people make fun of my hair.
Just because I cut my hair off does not mean I aspire to be a boy, i’m a lesbian or anything of that sort. I’m happier with this haircut. Also, don’t ask me if I got a haircut because its pretty damn obvious I did. Thank you.
me: i want a serious relationship
me: lol jk that'll never happen
Sorry I haven’t been blogging a whole lot lately, I’ve been busy. There’s a lot going on right now and I’m trying to figure out how to live with the weight of the world on my shoulders. I’m coping well, but I don’t know how to put anything. I hope you all are doing well. (:
Today consisted of getting a pixie cut and feeling confident for once, then going up to Pennsylvania for dinner with my parents friend’s. My dad’s friend Chris showed me all of his deceased sister’s photography albums (black and white film) and I was just so inspired. He actually gave me her Nikon film camera, with the film and the attachable flash and everything. But I just want...
It feels so wonderful to have no hair. (:
Anonymous asked: I'm glad you had a great day, I hope you have even more. I hate to see you upset
my looks: unfortunate
my grades: unfortunate
my weight: unfortunate
my social life: unfortunate
my family: unfortunate
my life: unfortunate
I don’t understand why I feel the way I do. I had a wonderful day, and now these feelings are sweeping over me. Today started terribly, I was simply mad at the world. By the end of second period I was feeling better, probably because I actually ate something, but then I got to meet someone who I can count on completely and it was just nice to be hugged and make a quick conversation. In third...
