April 2012
Time to cry myself to sleep and pray that I don’t wake up tomorrow.
I don't know why I even try.
Everything I do and say comes back to bite me in the ass. My mood swings have become out of control. For example, just ten minutes ago I was smiling and feeling good because my cousin is getting married, and then now i’m sitting here biting the inside of my lip and trying not to cry. Why does this happen? Every person I talk to ends up hating me for all the stupid things I say and do. I...
I want
new people to talk to me. So if you’re willing to be friends with me, leave me a message. What harm can it do?
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GUYS
my absolute favorite cousin got proposed to at her birthday dinner! This is honestly the happiest I’ve been in months. :D I’M GONNA BE A WEDDING SINGER!
March 2012
It cracks me up when people tell me i’m pretty because we both know that isn’t true.
So, my grandad was doing his taxes and he was on the phone with my Aunt Ellen and he was saying how he thought the abbreviation for Tennessee was TE. So my aunt corrected him and said it was TN, and he said; N as in Negro!? Oh my god I love that man.
My name is Hayley, and these are things that make...
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antiques/vintage
watching people skate
OFWGKTA
performing
cats
sweaters
tea/coffee
mac and cheese
being with awkward people
choir
candles
my sister
photography
fashion
“Run away to Brooklyn. Rent an apartment with a claw footed bathtub. Commute to...”
My room smells like apple pie and i’m making bacon for lunch. Then i’m cleaning and starting the renovation process of my room, then seeing a show at the Everett later. I’m hoping I can keep my energy level high.
I wish I wasn’t so painfully awkward.
I want to go to prom for some reason.
But I doubt i’ll ever go because most of the kids at Middletown are ridiculous.
Eating dry Cheerios, catching up on Skins, and planning with Heather. I think i’m feeling much better now, and that i’m going to have a wonderful spring break. I love my best friend.
I'm so done.
I’m tired of getting sick everyday. I’m tired of the nonsense that I deal with. I’m tired of my parents constantly loosing their jobs. I’m tired of being made fun of. I’m tired of feeling this much pain. I can’t take anything at all anymore. So what do I do? Drown myself? Overdose on alcohol or pills? Shoot myself? Slit my wrists until I bleed to death? I...
Lighting candles and listening to City and Colour.
This is how I spend a rainy afternoon. This week hasn’t been as bad as I expected. I’m hoping nothing goes wrong. But all I want right now is a boy to cuddle with.
Anonymous asked: If you're still here, you have a purpose for being here.
Anonymous asked: You're beautiful, and I somewhat understand your situation. And on top of it, I was just diagnosed with depression and anxiety and my mom isn't supporting me going on medication because she doesn't think it's that serious. Okay, well things do get better. (:
No one understands me whatsoever.
I try to talk about my problems but everyone’s excuse is that they can’t handle what I have to say. Can I help my feelings? No. I try my best, but it obviously doesn’t work. No one understands how bad this week is for me. Today exactly two years ago started a relationship that scarred me for life, and honestly it’s best that it ended. On the 29th, it will be two years since...
I don’t think anyone understands how rough this week is going to be for me. I just need someone to talk to that I can actually count on. But for now, my birthday is over and it’s just another day.
Since it’s my birthday and i’m feeling down, i’ll give myself the gift of the razor. I’m not healing anytime soon.
Guys,
it’s my birthday. c:
refferyjeffrey:
i feel like breaking shit and just yelling
